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Called: riija
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February 29th
god. Whole heartedly other wise a very disappointing evening. I think we all new that it would be Charlize and Renee, even though i really wish Renee wouldn't have gotten it. Her accent was horrid and peronly i think her performance was trashy. And i was sorta rooting for keisha, but probably just because she was so young. We all of course knew there was no hope for Johnny Depp no matter how much us drooling fangirls prayed. But i'll admit it was a though call. Sean Penn gave an amazing performance, and i really think Bill Murray deserves an oscar for decades of incredible movies. I'm actually pretty surprised he even got nominated since besides LOTR big hollywood effects movies that are well received by any audience and slightly mainstream never get any mention at all. Johnny really does do the best eccentric characters though, and maybe someday tha academy will notice that as well. I'm heart broken that lost in translation didn't get best picture, but i am glad Sofia Coppola at least got best original screenplay. It just so wrong. I also wish she would have won best director, if only for the fact that she was the first american woman to be ever nominated in that category. I mean come on, 76 years of oscars and only a few years ago Halle Berry got the first black leading lady and only now we're getting american women in the directing category. come on. out of the dark ages. Other categories i didn't really care about, i lost interest after the fifth LOTR oscar. I think Billy Cristal did an amazing job and i actually kinda enjoyed his comedy, which i usually don't. But he's been doing it for years so i guess it figures that he's good. Now i'm going to bed and i'll give out my oscars, since i seem to be the only one with any taste around here! don't you just hate those movies that hog all the oscars, and nominations as well! If you're listed for one category you might as well be listed for five..
February 23rd
I'm feeling so uninpsired. I've found a new board to stalk, called BORED NOW fan art (i forget the URL).. but after looking for inspiration in other people's work i've come to terms with my talentlessness.. which is not to say that i had any illusions about my level of design talent before, but now i'm getting to the point that i get so frustrated while working on something that i tend to give up before finishing, no matter for much of a learning experience completing the work might be. i just wish i was better, better now and not better after years of practice. It's getting so bad that by now i'm having a hard time just enjoying other people's work for it's visual appeal. Instead i'm disgrunteled by my own lack of talent. In all my frustration i thought about taking the whole wallpaper gallery down for a while, but if i did that i'd never get it up again, so whatever.
January 12th
I'm actually so bored i'm updating. incredible.
I'm also devastatingly frustrated by my lack of an anime community. I've started avoiding the AN boards as well, since the general age of most members seems to be around 12. I'm dying for some actual conversation. this hopelessness is only strengthened by the fact that only today i came across a thread by the fine name of "who do think is the hatest anime charater." so i've decided to solve all my problems by overloading myself on new fansubs. I didn't manage to get all the saikano subs on time (damn you viz, damn! the suspense will be the end of me!) and i can't really find a lot of series i might be interested in now. it's so bad in fact that i'm even considering maria sama ga miteru or mari-mite as it's called in Japan in all it's shouju-ai goodness. i also still have some manga i brought over from America i have yet to read. as well as some dvds. maybe i'll make it through the dark months after all. in totally different news i'm considering an actual domain. the only problem is if i pay for a domain, my internet isolation crisis might only get worse. i'm not gonna pay for a domain, no matter how much i like to hear myself think, if no one is ever gonna see it. and who would see it since i have absolutely no friends online. i need to make connections. infiltrate a community.
September 25th
a tiny speckle of hope.
August 16th
This has been the weekend from hell. The worst part of it all it that it's only saturday.
August 10th
An utterly senseless title that is, for the day.. This weekend i spent my first paycheck at Amazon. i got my first porn novel. graphic novel, that is. I've been waiting for that one for years *big face*
I had a funny encounter with myself this weekend also. I've never had any kind of sex drive. I'm uncomfortarble with sex. It makes me nervous and starts uncontrollable trains of thought that end up in teenage pregnancy and getting married at nineteen. *shudder* i've never been horny. and nothing's changed in my head, so this is totally new for me. i crave sexual simulation. there, i said it.
August 4th
June 29,2003 uh-ah, where am i? you know, i love my new blog with all capital letters, but i'm having a serious identity crisis because of it - or concerning it. i can't decide on the honesty level i want to portray for world wide analyses. i've been talking to myself for so long that it's weird to imagine someone listening, or even consider the possibility - even if i've always secretly prayed for someone eavesdropping on my private conversations. the myth of truly knowing someone would, in my case, only be possible thru reading my senseless babblings that i write for myself. so, who am i when it comes to actually being honest in front of other people? it's such an easy way out really, writing such unspeakable truths in public and waiting for someone to stumble on them. back to the point - i put this thing up to showcase emotions i could never speak about otherwise, and to make deliberate confessions i could never stand behind or take credit for face to face. how pathetic is that and what am i supposed to do about it? how do i lure people into my deadly truth-trap without being obvious or exposing myself, huh? right answers would be appreciated. All credit goes to Spirit Designs! Brought to you by Spirit Designs Site is owned by riija |
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